- December 20th, 2008
So I have been thinking alot lately.
Around the time that life dealt me another huge surprise, I was in Kuujjuaq traveling with a new parole officer named Yannick. This was the second or third time we worked together, and she was so nice. She had this tattoo behind her ear of a sparrow and another one on her ring finger from her failed marriage. She stopped drinking altogether because she found she was smoking alot. She invited me to a BBQ with some of the other people she had met there, but our flight from George River came in too late. I told her not to worry, I would go again in the Fall.
I really should never count on things.
Anyway, she told me that she wrote five things down on her calendar everyday that made her smile. She told me one day that my laugh had been one of them. I thought to myself that I should start doing the same thing. I did for two days before my life came to another abrupt halt. But that was six months ago, and while I am in a dark place still, I think I am going to start recording things daily that make me happy. But I am only going to strive for three. I think five may be a little too ambitious right now and I really don't want to set myself up for failure. Since I never write in this anymore, I am going to use it for this purpose. When I am in the habit of doing that semi-daily then maybe I will start pen-to-paper journal writing again. I wish I had written more during the past few years.
Woulda, coulda, shoulda.
Three things that made me smile today
- Seeing Tara in the mall
- A book at Venus Envy celebrating the beauty of vaginas